It seriously is, I’ve never encountered a worse summer, I mean what the hell is going on 
Oh yeah, another thing I’m definetaly not looking forward too. My WORST subjects, maltese and German, I mean it’s too goddamn hard, my German teacher hates me (Bitch I never did a single thing to her ‘-.-) and now 9th Grade is much tougher, we’re seniors now (..wow..) and all the shit’s on us, especially now since we need to take past papers, for our GSCE.
I chose, Biology, Chemistry and Physics, because I want to take up forensics but mother of god, it looks tough, but I knew that, but I’m scared like shit. Oh yah, then the goddamn ugly popular bitches, that swarm are school. Then my Friends, it’s all to much sturring into one goddamn bowl, and I just might explode!
I’m not sure where I stand with my friends, I have 2 sets, and I’m not happy with either of them, I wish my old best friend was back at out school but she moved, I still see her every Friday but it’s still doesn’t cover. I used to hang around with a couple of friends called, ******e AND ****n, (Im censoring because it’s not really appropiate to name them) Anyway, and they really have been leaving me out and acting like a pair of bitches, and I decided its time to fuck off.
When I joined these new group of friends, it was okay, but lately I’ve been missing my old ones, even after ******e was crying and saying she didn’t want to lose me, it was a pretty tough moment and I don’t know how I didn’t fall in the trap again.
Sometimes it’s just all to much, and I’m fucking scared, because I don’t know what’s going on in my life, and I’m trying to settle it down a bit, but it won’t do.
With My Parents fighting all the time, and with my Sister just not wanting to be anywhere around the house or with me (she’s having a mid life crisis for early adults…she’s always nagging me and I’m getting fucking annoyed) since she’s 20 now and she hasn’t learnt to grow up yet. Im just not sure where My Life Is and all I really want to do right now, is to get over and done with, with school, go live somewhere else, because I’m gonna explode, Im just fucking confused and I can’t understand what’s going to happen or what I want to happen.
I hope everything gets itself sorted out, because Im tired of shit now. My parents fights (they’re not arguments) are getting to much for me to handle, and I’m trying to sew there fucked up marriage together but I can’t, and I hope they’re not expecting me too especially since I’m on 13. I’m not sure what the fuck is going on, but it better stop, I’m not standing for this.
The Only Person who knows what it feels like is Chase, we've sorted that whole thing out that I was posting about today. It’s just hectic and it looks like there’s no ending to it.
See You Later Or Tomorrow.
~Philippa 
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