I've come to a point, in life where i'm desperate to get stuff and other things.
Well what I mean is... things have changed from the last time I posted, I just noticed I need to start taking more care of myself. Don't worry, i'm not gonna rant about that, but I Just wanted to tell you :)
Everyone gets desperate, for a boyfriend, usually a good looking one, and their are the crushes and yatta yatta, I could go on :P Anyway, and thing is, I sort of hate that.
Being in a relationship is hard, first its cool, then there are heartaches and then finally a break up, and there's all that "sane" drama, and really I don't feel like that.
Boyfriends, are hard to deal with too, how do you know they're not cheating on you. (Don't let that pile up in your little head :P) It's just those little things that lead your heart to be tore apart... and I should know.
Maybe I am desperate for a boyfriend, but I don't care, because for now... I don't need one, I don't need an extension of my heart, to be eventually taken away and ripped up into pieces.
Other things are to be desperate for like growing up, turning out into this cool awesome teenager, when the time comes, you've got to move on.
Growing up is hard, especially for women, but anyway I won't go into details. Life itself is unfair and hard, you live and you learn.
You're probably wondering why i'm boring you with this post, I don't blame you, but I guess I just feel like blurting the truth, because at this very moment... i'm hurt.
My heart is bleeding with sorrow, and the only thing I can do, is talk to you, I haven't cried and I will not cry because that, is not who I am, relationships are boring, life is exciting and for all it is, I already have a relationship. With My Life.
You see, life is something that guides you and leads you to what is right, and you sometimes lead it to the wrong places, and then you blame it on your life, life is unfair sometimes, but thats the way it is.
As a wise person, I should know that when someone hurts your feeling, a friend, a best friend, a boyfriend, you cry, it's normal, us human beings all do it and it's normal..
But you see.... that's something right now I can't do, and won't do, and it may sound stupid but I don't know why...
The thing is, I'm happy now, because even though I didn't cry I still let it all out. Life is unfair but today... it helped me.
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